My Heart

Shredded heart, ripped apart
By the war going on inside.
Gotta let go, release control,
and in You always abide.

Confident heart, set apart
For the purposes of God.
I’ve let it all go, released the control,
and in You will always abide.

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This is one of those poems that was written in pieces. The first stanza was probably written well over a year ago. There are many things that I struggle with, mentally, and the first stanza describes the warring feelings and struggles.

Though I will always have some kind of mental struggles – don’t we all? – running across a book by Renee Swope, “A Confident Heart: How to Stop Doubting Yourself and Live in the Security of God’s Promises,” caused me to add in the second stanza more recently.

I love how God can take the hopeless start to one of my poems and help me to write a hopeful end to it. This isn’t the first time, and won’t be the last, that I’ve added to a basic poem from some inspiration that God has planted within me. Sometimes I just start with one or two lines that I write into one of my “scratch” notebooks, and later — sometimes years later — those beginnings become something more.

If you’re someone who is looking to find your confidence in God, or maybe if you’re just curious about what that would look like in your life, I urge you to sign up for Renee’s online study, coming this January. Head over to her site today and sign up.

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Rooftop

Rooftop in Israel

On the rooftop
I am alone in my sin
Heartaches hidden within
I am alone with my thoughts
My stomach tying up into knots
As emotions begin their onslaught

On the rooftop
I am alone with my prayers
Crying out in despair
As the tears roll down my face
I begin to plead for grace
God, please let my sins be erased

On the rooftop
The Son is here
No more need to shed tears
He has intervened
I have been washed clean
My heart is now serene

Weekly Photo Challenge: Sky

You never know what you can find

When you dare to look into the sky.

A bird, a plane, a sunset you see

Or maybe a lazy buzzing bee.

Sometimes the sky goes on without end

And together with the seas and lands seem to blend.

The sky so beautiful, the sky so blue

The sky even has a UFO or two!?

No, wait, I see

It’s just a cloud or two or three.

I hope you’ve enjoyed my little rhyme

I wrote it, you see, at the drop of a dime.

Part of the weekly photo challenge for Post A Week 2011,

Look into the SKY you’ll also see heaven!

Life is but a vapor

Today, one of my neighbors, Dorothy, unexpectedly passed away; she just never woke up. What a reminder of how fragile life is and how we are never promised the tomorrows. She was a Christian, so I will rejoice that she is now with the Lord and cured of all her pains and illnesses. My family and I went by this evening to express our condolences and we were all talking about how she was out walking her dog last night.

It’s a reminder to live for now and don’t wait to do what needs doing; say what needs saying; and love all who come our way.
How many times have we all said, “I’ll get around to it,” or, “There’s always tomorrow?” Even Little Orphan Annie sang that “the sun will come out tomorrow.” Well, the sun may come out tomorrow, but we’re not guaranteed to see it; Dorothy didn’t see the sun today. Her plans to visit my church again soon won’t happen. If I were to die tonight, I know there’s much I would be leaving undone and unsaid.

Two Bible verses quickly come to mind, as I think about life.
Psalms 144:4 – People are like a vapor, their days like a shadow that disappears.
James 4:14 – You do not know about tomorrow. What is your life like? For you are a puff of smoke that appears for a short time and then vanishes.

Life is but a vapor,
Fleeting and short,
Tomorrows are not promised,
So don’t waste the todays,
Do it now, say it now,
Love with open arms.

For a purpose

Chapter three of Job opens up with Job cursing the day he was born. Job’s trials have clearly begun to affect him and he is getting discouraged, but he is still faithful to God. The next few chapters are discussions between Job and his friends about his situation. Job has a lot to teach us about dealing with trials and adversity.  As Job’s friend, Eliphaz, reminds Job in 4:7, “Call to mind now: Who, being innocent, ever perished? And where were upright people ever destroyed?” As mere mortals, it’s impossible for us to see the big picture that God sees. We must remember to trust in his divine plans and know that there is a greater purpose in all that happens.

Resting with joy

We will often struggle to understand the purposes in events. I still struggle to understand the purpose of the difficult childhood I had. I may never fully understand, this side of Heaven. I must remember to trust God and ask him to show me the purpose, so that it can be used to glorify Him.

All too often I get stuck in my own thoughts and feelings, which border on depression, and forget to seek after God. It’s too easy to get stuck in the rut of day-to-day life and and forget that I’m a child of God. I let life’s disappointments, frustrations, and curve balls distract me from the hope and joy that I should have. The “sufferings” I face pale in comparison to those of Job and to many others around the world today. I have many comforts that people, as close as Mexico, can only dream about. Yet, I find things to complain about almost daily. It really is sad how self-absorbed I can be.

I hope there does come a time for me, when I can truly live out what it means to be a Christian and to shine the light in the many dark corners of my world. As I grow, I just have to remember that everything that happens is…

FOR A PURPOSE.

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The Purpose in the Pain

God, please take these pains
And heal my heart
Make me whole
I’ve hid them away
Down deep for so long
Please help me to let them go

I know there’s a purpose
In the pains you’ve sent my way
I know there’s a purpose
And I’ll be thankful, starting today

God, please show me the path
That these pains have prepared
Give me strength of heart
For there’ll come a time
When your plan is revealed
And I’ll understand my part

I know there’s a purpose
In the pains you’ve sent my way
I know there’s a purpose
And I’ll be thankful, starting today

(A song I wrote about a year and a half ago.)

Crystal Wings

Just for the heck of it, I thought I’d post the first lyrics that I ever wrote down. As a kid, I would make up lots of songs and sing, but didn’t start writing them down until about sixth grade or so. These lyrics sprang from a short story I’d written around that time. They’re a little silly, but hey I was a kid…lol.


Crystal Wings

Verse 1:
If I was a unicorn with a golden horn,
And could fly upon crystal wings.
I’d fly to my mysterious world,
And sing of all they joys that earth could bring.

Chorus:
And I could fly, I could fly upon crystal wings.
I could fly, I could fly upon crystal wings.

Verse 2:
My world is of unicorns and pegasi,
With many places to go.
I’d fly all around to find my friends,
And tell of all the love that’s on earth.